Thursday, August 29, 2013

A message of love

I know you.

I have known you your whole life.

I remember when you were young.

I've watched you grow.

Whether you realize it or not, you are
mine and I am yours.

I love you with all that I am.

I've always loved you.

I will always love you.

I love you more than you know,
perhaps more than you will ever know.

I know you and I love you.

Let it in, feel it, from the top of your head
to the tips of your toes.

Let my love wash over you, forever.

You are never alone, for I am always
with you.

Feel me there.

Feel my love.

Accept my love.

It is there for you always.

I love you.

Sunday, June 2, 2013

One - Divine - Truth - Love - ALL

ALL is Well.

There is no Good.

There is no Evil.

There is no Start.

There is no Done.

There is no Beginning.

There is no End.

There is no Right.

There is no Wrong.

There is no Life.

There is no Death.

Duality is an illusion strengthened by belief.

You cannot embrace one without believing in the other., therefore, when you embrace one you give strength to the other.

Give up your belief in Good, and Evil disappears.

All is as it should be, when it should be, and how it should be.

To disbelieve this is to believe that Divinity makes mistakes.

Accept.  Appreciate.  ALL is One.  ALL is Divine.

Divine is Truth.  Truth is Love.  Love is Divine.

One Divine Truth Love ALL

This message came to me in a moment of awareness and clarity.  I know it is difficult to accept when someone you love does something that rises anger or sadness in you, nearly impossible when murderers and rapists are brought into the picture.  There it is, though.  We cannot have a truly loving world until we truly love the world JUST AS IT IS and truly love ourselves JUST AS WE ARE.  Because we are a piece of the One Divine True ALL.

With much love for you,

Mother Tory

Friday, May 31, 2013

Too Sensitive? (An Anti-Poem)

I am sensitive.
I've always been this way.
I am sensitive.
It gets harder every day.
Don't tell me I'm weak because I cry when I watch the news.
Tell me I'm strong because I survived the pain of a thousand deaths and the grief of the loved ones left behind.
Don't tell me to smile more because my sadness depresses you.
Tell me you're proud of me for being able to live in this world and still have a smile.
Don't tell me I'm crazy because I like to dance in the rain.
Join me in the delight of savoring the good things that seem small.
I know what it feels like to live in constant pain, but I also know the ecstasy of singing in the rain.
So, while this "poem" might bring out the "crazy" OCD in you all,
I can't help but wonder what this world would be like,
if we all cried when we watched the news.
I am sensitive.
I get stronger by the mile.
I am sensitive.
I am proud of every tear.
I am sensitive.
I delight in every smile.
I am sensitive.
Please take time to hold me near.
See, I can rhyme, too.

Have a wonderful day, everyone!
With much love to you all,
Mother Tory

Monday, April 29, 2013

The Secret to a Happy Life ; )

   I've been giving a lot of thought lately to my moods and how they've affected how I've lived my life. A little background: When I was nine I became chronically depressed. Over time, as I went through puberty, it morphed into manic depression. The ups and downs seemed very extreme to me, but I hid a lot of it from my family. They knew about the depression (I was eventually put on Prozac, after all.), but I did a lot of crazy things during the manic times that I will never tell anyone about. There were several periods when I was even suicidal.

However, I was always brought back to reality by my love for my children and I even eventually fell in love with an intelligent man who seemed to "get" me and I was able to basically cure myself of my depression due to the almost overwhelming love that I felt. Unfortunately, I was never able to completely throw off the tendency to occassionally drop back down when things weren't great, though. After all, every relationship has it's problems.

So, like I said, I've been thinking about it a lot lately. Especially since I have been accused a lot over the past few years of "overthinking", being "too sensitive", and "taking things too personally". Is it possible that it's all in my head? Just my perceptions? Perhaps a bias about how I think people who love each other should behave?

I took these thoughts and started looking for help, self-help to be more precise. I needed mentors to learn how to improve my outlook. I looked for people who seemed happy and successful themselves. I started listening to Kevin Trudeau's "You're Wish Is Your Command" (I know what people say about him, I didn't care. I liked his books, his enthusiasm, and I was too lonely and broke to be picky and I got it for free.) In his lessons, Kevin gave a recommended reading list to help listeners to better understand what he was teaching. In this list was a book called "Ask and it is Given: The Teachings of Abraham" by Esther and Jerry Hicks.

At first it confused me, I thought it was some kind of hoax or mass joke. But then I started to really listen and it started to resonate with my heart. I followed up with some research about Abraham and Esther and Jerry Hicks and it started to resonate with my mind as well.

And then I found out that Esther (Abraham) was featured in the movie "The Secret" (A movie I had never wanted to watch before) and then taken out due to a conflict with the movie's creator. I decided that I really wanted to watch this original version of the movie and, miracle of miracles, someone had uploaded the original version to youtube and it popped up in my "recommended by youtube" list.
Unfortunately, the movie has since been taken down.  However, I definitely recommend that you watch it.  It's been a game changer for me.

The Purpose of Life

What is the purpose of life?

Well, quite simply, it is to live, to grow, and to eventually die.

The trick of that answer is the definition of the word "grow" and what it pertains to.

It started when you were conceived. Back then the lives of your cells had the purpose of growing you physically and to do their best to grow in the manner necessary to put you together properly. That part wasn't a choice you had control of. It was up to your cells.

And then, at some point, this mass of living cells developed or was given the conscious that is you, to run things, so to speak. Your cells had, still have, and always will have the purpose of developing, growing, and protecting the life they've created. However, at this point YOU are in control of how you grow in nonphysical ways.

As a baby and child you grew by learning about your immediate surroundings, and as you grew so did your universe, your knowledge and experience.

The real questions are:

Do you choose to continue to grow, learn, experience?


What do you choose to do with it?

Monday, March 25, 2013

The 7 Decisions for Personal Success - The Traveler's Gift by Andy Andrews review

I just finished listening to the audiobook version of "The Travelers Gift" by Andy Andrews.

I have to say that it was quite inspirational.

It's about a man who is going through a rough time and, after getting fired from his job, goes for drive and hits a tree.   However, instead of going through the crash, he is transported through time and space to learn the 7 lessons from some famous and not-so-famous people through history.

I am going to give you the 7 lessons, but I strongly recommend that you read or listen to the book yourself, as it is highly transformational.

The Seven Decisions for Personal Success

#1:   The buck stops here.   I am responsible for my past and my future.

#2:   I will seek wisdom.   I will be a servant to others.

#3:   I am a person of action.   I seize this moment.   I choose now.

#4:   I have a decided heart.   My destiny is assured.

#5:  Today I choose to be happy.   I am the possessor of a grateful spirit.

#6:   I will greet this day with a forgiving spirit.  I will forgive myself.

#7:   I will persist without exception.   I am a person of great faith.

Excellent lessons, I'm sure you'll agree. So get the book so you can feel what the main character goes through to learn these lessons. It is a wonderful and thought-provoking ride.

Monday, February 25, 2013

I saw Scott

Today, when I pulled into the driveway after running errands, I saw a man sitting on a small boulder near where I had parked.  He was wearing a sweater and a hat and had a brownish-red beard with gray in it.  My first thought was, "That looks like Scott."

I wanted to go over to him and tell him how interesting it was to me that he looked just like my step-father, but my hands were full and I wanted to get my things into the house.  I had to come back out for the rest of it anyway, so I figured I would talk to him when I came back out.

I was inside my apartment for no more than thirty seconds.  When I came back out, he was gone.  I looked up and down the path, but he was gone.  I almost started to cry.

I realize that's a strong emotion for not getting to speak to a perfect stranger, but I couldn't help myself.  You see, my step-dad has been passed for almost eleven years, this is the first time I've ever come across "seeing him" since then, and my sisters and I still miss him so much.

So, I sit here typing this and crying and hoping my kids stay upstairs until I wipe the mascara off my cheeks, to make sure I never forget and to let my sisters know that I think he's still with us.

We love and miss you Scott!