Living on this planet has taught me not to believe humans and not to trust animals.
Maybe I should live amongst the plants.
I don't expect them to care about me any more than the animals do, but they're not going to let me down, either.
That's just it, though, isn't it?
I trust the plants because I have no expectations of them.
They are never going to convince me that they have plans and then not follow through.
They are never going to tell me they love me and then leave me alone.
They are never going to act like they care and then hurt me.
They're plants. They don't care about anything but surviving as best they can.
My mistake was believing that people were more than that.
I'm no better than anyone else. I've done all these things, too.
However, I also know that I am capable of more/doing better and desire to do more/be better.
The pain only comes when I expect others to not only want to do more but be willing to put effort towards it, as well.
Anyone can say they'll be there for you, but how many are actually going to show up?
I'm willing to bet that, if I died today, there'd be more flowers than true friends at my funeral.
I think it's time I gave up all expectations, just go with the flow and take care of me.